my sad 18th Birthday

all of us wants a good,cool birthday party or just simple..
But me, this is the worst birthday i've ever had in my life. T.T
before the date September 23, i am too expecting that was the very first time i celebrate my birthday together with my family,friends having a birthday cake, cotillion,18 roses and candles and even  wearing a beautiful gown, but i was too disappointed..
That day "I WANT TO DIE"
so much pain i feel,angry,fill of emotions 
i want to be happy that day but i can't..
there's a lot of problems,that came to me in that day


What happen?


September 21,2009


at school, i was inviting my classmates go to in our house at birthday on Wednesday.
my friend ask me " what is your birthday wish?" i replied " just simple to be with my family on my special day".
My friend have an idea she wants me to be with my family in province in just only 2 days..and i want that too.
my guardian worried but she allowed me to go in province together with my friend.


on the way,rainy days


im so much happy, so excited to see my mom and brother, that was the best birthday gift i've ever had in a friend.
when i see my Mom and brother, i was so happy.. i feel so comfort,no doubt, i miss them so much..my friend was so happy for me to see my family..
When my 18th birthday comes,my Mom gave me a complete silver jewelry, and i really like it..
i cried..because my Mom hard work to buy that kind of jewelry for me..


need to go home,


heavy rain outside,but i need to go home,my guardian worried about me, because i told him that i will be back on sunday morning, but we cant travel due to bad weather..
so we decided on monday morning will be back..
But my guardian gets angry,because i cant go back at home on sunday, he mad at my Mom, for nonsense reason,
my Mom decided to get me at my guardian and stop my schooling..
my guardian get very mad at me.. 
He shouted me,throw bad words..i cried and cried.. " its my special day why you dont understand me.why you dont greet me that would be much better" just on my mind


That was the worst birthday i've ever had...
 it's ok ..and thats life..God have a plan, its just a trial and struggles in life that i have pass..
but i can't experience to have an birthday cake, coalition 
and im not 18TH ANYMORE..




>>>>>cathy